NO need to say GoodBye

THE DAY WHEN WE THREE “LI (EA) VE”
Entirely dedicated to my two beloved

“I didn’t write your name because I feel insecure to get you back as you felt that time. I am extremely sorry for that. Since that day I felt that “nothing is impossible” is the greatest lie in our lives. I do not know how much to love you and how much to hate myself for that, because I shut up when you left but it also happened because of you. Still I love both of you.”

“Really, she is annoying” he said, “I mean how one can think about her status quo for 24/7. It’s impossible…she thinks that her three and half years old son also should think about it”. He was continuing “I mean common he is child and why he will care for her god damn status.’ Again he was going to continue but I stopped him and told him to get relax.

I was aware how his wife is. She is beautiful, bold and gorgeous. She was not Indian-American but American- Indian for me. She looked so younger than me. I mean it; I get embarrassed when she stands front of me, though she is beauty without brain, she can create complex for me. But He is not also bad one. He is the best one according to me. Intelligent, caring, rational, moral but bound, exactly like I am. For his son he was only his mom and dad. I mean entire two month’s period that small kid did not ask for his mom even once; he was damn comfortable with his dad and then of course with me. He was the only young one who gets attached to me very badly; nearly four year old child shared two relationships with me- one is of being his an adult girlfriend and another one is of his unpronounced mom. Second feeling was more attached to my heart for this sweetie.

But today he and his son went back to his country. Long away from me- suddenly- without taking warm farewell from me. I was about to say something to them. At the international airport, I met him finally and for last. I have controlled my tears. He ‘was’ waiting for me- I guess; because he said “I knew that you would come.” They both were so happy that I came there …but what about me - now I was entirely alone with their memories. I just wanted to tell him everything, but suddenly he started, “As I told you before you are my sweetest memory ever which no one can erase. I was in complete family because of you. Its not exaggeration but you can ask my son he will say same; He is crying a lot….but…Now at this moment whatever you will talk to me – just think before talking—please do not lock yourself and me into the words.”

He was not artificial, he was not filmy, and he was not lying. He was just NATURAL.
I knew how he has controlled his expressions; nothing different was going on into both of the minds. But as a media teacher he advised me – to media student that I should think from my brain not from my heart.
Finally I answered him “believe me; at one point of my life, I am going to fulfill all of the today’s remaining things. I have to fulfill them because that is my wish” (“to love you from true heart like you are doing now” I just murmured)
We both hugged each-other. His small son kissed on my lips as my boyfriend and hugged me as my son. ……..At this point of my life I experienced something which will never be like my future. Though I am not fulfilled, I AM SATISFIED, FOR SURE;



At this point of my life I experienced something which will never be like my future. Though I am not fulfilled, I AM SATISFIED, FOR SURE;

Nonsesne of Next Generation!

Some terms are unnecessarily made. I mean they tell nothing. The trendy words do not have definition still they are being used as important words in life. My dad said to me “such a useless you are... and you are going to be a “next generation”?
What is the NEXT GENERATION?
I mean it is flow less...baseless concept…….. What is the exact location of this “next generation”? Oh! Just tell me the exact location of “NEXT’’. When ‘’NEXT’’ comes?
And misery of my life is that I am the candidate of this next generation to prove myself worth. I can not ask anyone if he or she is worth in any case but I should be.
Why I should try to achieve this definition-less concept of “NEXT GENERATION’’? When this next generation is never going to come into picture. “Next” has no limit, may be it is long or vast or big or like ameba, I mean shapeless. Words are really easy to use when we never look into their meanings; but they content great philosophy.



I don’t know but we are far away from being choosy while selecting words into our language; especially in India I face it many times. From Indian language films, Bollywood films, in song lyrics………. The selective attitude towards words has been decreased. Most trendy and popular words are part of these lyrics.

I think this term is especially made by Indian politicians who want their seat for life time.
When next generation point out something, LAST GENERATION says ‘it’s a big bite in small mouth’. Who has decided the size of mouth of next generation? Why can’t NEXT GENERATION think beyond their area of enjoyment? It doesn’t mean we have bionic brains (or may we have) but just allow us to think with these brains. Our life is restricted to college festivals, street plays and elocution competition and attending career seminars! Why can’t we go beyond that? This is not fairy tale questions? I faced it badly…

I am free-lancer reporter in regional newspaper. I write about college life, means festival and other crap, in which we always enjoy, dance, celebrate, and never cry. Yes, sometimes I also talk about many problems of college circles but I am sure these problems are not enough seriously explained, to highlight them; due to some restrictions, I can not make it possible. But from my site I always try to explain them very clearly and with the help of college-public opinion. My most serious topic articles are always ignored or diluted.
If we are next generation then how we should involve ourselves in this goody-goody ideas of utopian world and put ourselves to live in dreams of perfect life till our third year and then wander helter-skelter to attempt the things become easier... is it that much easy to us? I don’t mean that we should set ourselves on fire. Except debate competitions and discussions seminars we want more things in practical, where we can measure our performance.

The thing is that in India we do not have measurement for anything. I don’t know the measurements of NEXT GENERATION and I am searching where this NEXT GENERATION locates? I mean if the NEXT GENERATION can not be defined into words, into location or into measurements then it is not exist, it is not real. And I do not want to follow this lie concept. ‘Sorry, Dad I can be useless according to you but not from next generation. I am alive in present and hence I am PRESENT GENERATION because it EXISTS.