idiotic me...

After long time, I am back here. Well someone reminded me that I should write. Thanks to that someone!! It is beautiful to meet such people who solves the things which you never feel. What happened in these days?? Nothing...

I like Box because in it I feel safe; I like huge meadow because on it I feel free. Both feelings are beautiful but beauties of them are situational. Well, it is interesting to see and observe how I built myself. Moslow was right; "self-actualization" is amazing.

I am totally messed up... havoc like winds on south pole...Frozen, Dry and Empty. Nowadays, I am getting stuck with unknown feeling. As an experience, it is fine but then why did still it stuck? I need to move on. The feeling is new to me but universal and mutual.

Ranade Sir was right I guess...its nice to live alone. You save lots of things like money and emotions. As it is we are social animal so we will manage anywhere as per our needs. Why we want closed one when they do not want to listen us.

I guess I need to stop exaggerating my emotions... that's idiotic...

Real Jamal unlike Slumdog one...

I am not sure what is so hurtful to western media about third world countries. I am an Indian and I don't think my country is illiterate, facing embarssing poverty and corruption.
Danny Boyle became the reason to think that; of course it is actually began because of Vikas Swarup's book - 'Q and A' (which was not superselling book in India). It was a story about 'Jamal'who became millionaire through a reality show with the help of his experience in life.
You know what, he is not a really 'Jamal' who stays in Dharavi-slum. Because I am seeing many Jamals in my entire life, I stay in Mumbai (born and brought up in Mumbai), always travel in second class of local train, and I never seen a Jamal who is actually running behind his Latika.
I have seen Jamal who is selling ear-rings, bracelate, anklet, bangles, scarfs, drawing and cookery books, household commodities, and on and on...this Jamal is more active and efficient and fast in his thinking and behavior. He does not have time to run behind his past because his present is depend of his daily performance.
I think he is focused and glamoured in his realities, he is professional though he is illiterate. This Jamal is real unlike Jamal in slumdog.
and yes.......he is not Slumdog....but always try to be Underdog in his own boundry-less region. and I appreciate it.....

COMPARISON sucks.

Comparison is the worst thing in the world. And our parents have this habit and they proudly follow it. But what is the output of this kind of comparison. As per I know, it only creates issues- to discuss, to fight and to entertain. There is no moral output of Comparison.
Who is better Shahrukh or Salman or Amir? this is the frequent fight in Indian media. Hence Indian Broadcast Media is loosing their potentiality. Another example is Copenhegan Summit where Developed countries blame developing countries that they are the main reason of pollution and global warming. Again both groups fight on the comparison. Best example for comparison is the You tube, where people always compare each-other's culture without appreciating each-other; but they discussed it while categorizing them into good and bad.
Comparison makes you to think who is superior and inferior, sometimes unnecessarily!
As showed in '3 idiots' (bollywood movie) 'LIFE IS A RACE'. Our parents teach us that, especially Indian parents definately teach like that.
Living in such comparative world while facing annoying competition, is very much depressive. You can not think about any other things except your own life. And then we start to go away from the concept of group work, community faith, nation pride. We just portraye out self-development for others to clap and these jokers clap to and make us idol for their children and again teach them that life is a race.
As an Indian I also follow the formula of COMPARISON but in different way, I compare my past with my present and try for the satisfying future. It makes me relax and healthy and for me that is most important than any other race.... 'akhir sir salamat toh pagadi pachhas' (if there is head then only you can wear thousand caps on it)

This world is flowless

Due to terrorism I always see the highlighted issue of "Islam Vs. World". People like SRK makes movie on it, but I really do not know how much it will work? because here no one is wrong, no one is bad or no one is good or right; but everyone is selfish. When you decide that you want to become globalized then entire question of nationality and patriotism about your country can be killed. Why people want to become globalized? I think that they want their own identity.
The era of british colonization said same thing to us. Why did they become global? because they want to earn power to become a powerful; when I say that I want to become powerful then it is so obvious that I have to grab your power. British came to my country- India, because it was rich that time; similarly Americans (i.e. American foreign policy) came to gulf because it was/is 'OILY' rich. British exploited us directly because their was no fear of concept of nationality in India (which our leader generated latter). Americans exploited gulf through military's helping hand indirectly, because there was no constitution for these nations.

After all this talk, what I realize that stability is most important for the nation. I am really happy and lucky that my country got leader who thought about stability for the first place. Though we count in third world country, we have something to follow legelly and reliably. As per my knowledge, Afaganistan was following constitution which was based on Soviet Union thoughts; but when USSR left the Afganistan, Afgani had to thought about their constitution with the reference of Islam religion. In my country I have some intelligent expert muslims, their thoughts are completely respectable.
Religion for constitution is not that much good solution; because constitution suppose to be stable and Religion is flexible in nature. Manier times religion restricts our boundries of acceptation and elimination, and here you stop thinking for yourself. Religion keeps on updating your social life rules. Social life is not always good for your health.
To keep yourself into good personality, it is important that you should think for yourself in personal way but not in public. I think these young terrorists of any land are victims of exposing thoughts for social life, their life is influenced by thoughts which come from their social life. And on this ground they try to feel up their vaccant personal life; because in such young age, where you think just about you, you have to think about yourself in society and sometimes unnecessarily into global level.
At the age where you can not define what kind of knowledge you have, you start to think about Ideas of Society and start to define or conceptualize the principle of society. There is no stage for you or you don't have gutts to stand on it? because terrorizing is the easy way of ....nothing....
Terrorism terrorized me like my enemy, sometimes like my parents or teachers, or sometimes like my boyfriend or like my husband. But nothing more than that... how much you will cry for terror.
Terrorism is not for convincing, not for understanding, not for showing power, or it is not even a war. It is just for terror. No one loose anything no one gains anything, we make politics out of it for discussion.
Terrorism is not a war. Because the kings of my land used to fight a war to WIN and whenever they found out that war is destruction they were used to consider themselves most shameful.
And here- in this war- no one is shameful, because here- no one is king.