THE DAY WHEN WE THREE “LI (EA) VE”
Entirely dedicated to my two beloved
“I didn’t write your name because I feel insecure to get you back as you felt that time. I am extremely sorry for that. Since that day I felt that “nothing is impossible” is the greatest lie in our lives. I do not know how much to love you and how much to hate myself for that, because I shut up when you left but it also happened because of you. Still I love both of you.”
“Really, she is annoying” he said, “I mean how one can think about her status quo for 24/7. It’s impossible…she thinks that her three and half years old son also should think about it”. He was continuing “I mean common he is child and why he will care for her god damn status.’ Again he was going to continue but I stopped him and told him to get relax.
I was aware how his wife is. She is beautiful, bold and gorgeous. She was not Indian-American but American- Indian for me. She looked so younger than me. I mean it; I get embarrassed when she stands front of me, though she is beauty without brain, she can create complex for me. But He is not also bad one. He is the best one according to me. Intelligent, caring, rational, moral but bound, exactly like I am. For his son he was only his mom and dad. I mean entire two month’s period that small kid did not ask for his mom even once; he was damn comfortable with his dad and then of course with me. He was the only young one who gets attached to me very badly; nearly four year old child shared two relationships with me- one is of being his an adult girlfriend and another one is of his unpronounced mom. Second feeling was more attached to my heart for this sweetie.
But today he and his son went back to his country. Long away from me- suddenly- without taking warm farewell from me. I was about to say something to them. At the international airport, I met him finally and for last. I have controlled my tears. He ‘was’ waiting for me- I guess; because he said “I knew that you would come.” They both were so happy that I came there …but what about me - now I was entirely alone with their memories. I just wanted to tell him everything, but suddenly he started, “As I told you before you are my sweetest memory ever which no one can erase. I was in complete family because of you. Its not exaggeration but you can ask my son he will say same; He is crying a lot….but…Now at this moment whatever you will talk to me – just think before talking—please do not lock yourself and me into the words.”
He was not artificial, he was not filmy, and he was not lying. He was just NATURAL.
I knew how he has controlled his expressions; nothing different was going on into both of the minds. But as a media teacher he advised me – to media student that I should think from my brain not from my heart.
Finally I answered him “believe me; at one point of my life, I am going to fulfill all of the today’s remaining things. I have to fulfill them because that is my wish” (“to love you from true heart like you are doing now” I just murmured)
We both hugged each-other. His small son kissed on my lips as my boyfriend and hugged me as my son. ……..At this point of my life I experienced something which will never be like my future. Though I am not fulfilled, I AM SATISFIED, FOR SURE;
At this point of my life I experienced something which will never be like my future. Though I am not fulfilled, I AM SATISFIED, FOR SURE;
