Myself

I was in the bus. A school girl sitting next to me was a perfect recall of my past personality. I was exactly like her- fat, fleshy, nerd with round frame -big spectacles! As I came back home, I saw my old photograph and compared it with my ‘face book’ profile picture! I am not the same I was in my past and I am absolutely fine with it.

What I was in school? A geek/nerd, a girl who is never been looked by a guy of her age! Among the students, I was just an object to get envy, to get teased. This was so damn depressive for a girl like me! But then I do not remember how I had handled myself in those days? Actually I was without friends. So from that day onwards, the term called ‘Friend’ has become very fake and abrupt, at least for me! I think that friends are those individuals with whom I can celebrate and enjoy and sometimes I can share my dilemmas. Now there is no definite friend in my life! When I made myself strong to accept this fact, I realized that I have to ready to accept new things and new experience in my life without defining them right or wrong, or good or bad! I am not judgmental and I believe that people and situation do change and hence the results are not similar always. But at the same time, I never give my 100% dedication to someone’s life! Maybe it is never more than 40%.

The only strength in me is that I am very positive towards my life! I have vision, maybe it is not clear yet, but I want to work for it! Being a social animal, I hate emptiness and loneliness! Interestingly, I am very sincere student but I am not a serious person. I am happy to take responsibility at the work. But when it comes to relationship, I always found myself unprepared for being responsible. I don’t believe in guilt, because it always saturates your life. I like halts but not on the frozen lands! I believe or I learned that life is like a stream. It flows and it changes. And I like that.

Everyone learn to live the life! Even I do! I learn that the people around you are for to respect, to love, to hate, to criticize, to help, to kick, to envy, to laugh and to get entertain. And you should give everyone what they deserve. So it is a very rational process in the life!

Once in my school trip, I was having a logical conversation with my class teacher. He told me, “You are closed like a box! You don’t allow people to enter in your life!” but now when I look at myself, I am no more like a box! It is proper stream, and when it changes- When the stream changes direction, it is not that 'I am looking for an escape' but it is like ‘I am looking for something more..."

yes, I am that Positive!